Terrified!!

Don't worry everyone- more pictures are coming but we are literally in the middle of moving and I can't get my pictures onto my blog right now. But I just needed to vent right now because quite frankly I am terrified. So much has been going on that it all hasn't hit me yet. The move, the friends I'm going to miss, family I'm going to miss,...

I've just been so dang busy running here to there, packing, cleaning, working, mike's graduation-

and I still have two more weeks of running to go. We're packing the truck today, driving out to California tomorrow, then this weekend we might drive to San Jose to find a place to rent in June, then next week we are flying to NYC for a week.

And I'm scared because I know what's coming eventually. It's all going to hit me at one time really hard. And I'll probably have a "Melanie breakdown" which usually includes a lot of crying and a lot of despairing with Mike rubbing my back, telling me it's going to be okay.

It's really not fun to witness. But I just don't know how to avoid it. Maybe if I could just be busy and running around for the rest of my life it would never come- but that doesn't sound like too much fun either. So I will just accept the inevitable and know that in a few weeks, I will be having a meltdown, missing all of you and everything that we are leaving.

Love you all!

Hallelujah

So last night was my very last graveyard shift at American fork Hospital Labor and Delivery. I feel like I am on cloud nine to know that I am done with night shifts for a while. I might actually function like a normal person this summer and not like a zombie. It hasn't really hit me yet- in fact none of it has with the move. I've just been so busy with work, Mike's graduation , my dad's illness and packing that I haven't really had time to let it all sink in. So as of right now, I don't miss it. But I know I will. I know that I will really miss all of the friends I have there. Some I've had now for five years. And I have so many good and funny memories from working there. You really start to bond with people when you're up at 3:00 am together. But as for right now, I'm just going to relax and sit back and remind myself that I don't have to worry and plan my life around my work and sleep schedule anymore. I love this feeling!!

Friends

Since we're getting closer to moving, we've been trying to let the kids visit all their friends one more time. Here they are at Aunt Kimber's house. They had such a fun time sitting together in the front yard eating their ice cream. Every time I peeked outside they were giggling about something else. Tyler is certainly going to miss his cousin, Cooper.

A blessing in disguise

Mike and I were a little upset when we found out our landlord wasn't going to let us stay the extra month we wanted to. We had found someone to move in June 1st but then found out that our landlord was going to raise the rent $200. So after that we just decided to go ahead and move out earlier than we would have liked. Luckily, my parents were willing to let us come and stay with them for a month since we will be income-less for all of May. However, now I see that really it was a blessing in disguise. A couple of weeks ago my dad was diagnosed with cancer of the lymph nodes. He just started chemotherapy last week and has to get it every three weeks for the next 6 months. I know that it will be such a blessing for us and hopefully for my parents

to have that month together. I can help take care of my dad and the kids can help to distract him. It's amazing how some things just work out for the best.